Renewing My Self Confidence

Renewing My Self Confidence –

Many years ago, after a very bad breakup, I was feeling horrible about myself as a woman due to things that were said to me by my ex and the way he treated me. My self-confidence wasn’t good to begin with but his words and actions during our time together made it much worse. I felt ugly, unattractive and undesirable.

While on a trip with my brother, I went to see a show where a famous act was performing. I had a great time and there was a “meet and greet” after the show. I was too shy to go over to the performers but one of them, who was single at the time, looked at me “that way”. (Ladies, you know what I mean!) I immediately thought to myself that maybe my ex was wrong and I am still desirable and attractive. The performer continued glancing my way and looking at me throughout the event while he was signing autographs and taking pictures with his fans. Being the shy chicken that I was, I left before the meet and greet was over.

A few months later, that act was performing in my hometown and I went to the show. Again, I stayed for the meet and greet and, you guessed it, he again kept looking at me “that way” throughout the event. But, again, I chickened out and left before it was over.

What I did do, though, was send flowers to his hotel room with a note thanking him for giving me my confidence back. I put my email address on the note and he emailed me. We corresponded a few times and we both went our separate ways.  

Thanks to this man, I learned more about myself and I learned that just because one person said things or did things to me didn’t mean that the entire world felt that way. I also learned to trust myself and know who I am. If I am okay with me, that is all that matters. At the end of the day, I have to look in the mirror and like who I see.